So my beloved and I were out walking and while we were walking we were chatting about this and that and mostly our chat was my list, ordered alphabetically, of Things That Could Go Wrong as I venture into unknown waters this week. And I was particularly keen to seek his opinion on one of those items as it is something about which he knows more than I, so I detailed my fear, ending with, ‘…but I’m being silly, aren’t I, that won’t happen will it?’
To which he replied, ‘It could, and in fact…’
At which point I stopped walking and said, ‘Yeah, nah, here’s the part where you snort and say, goodness no, what, how did you even manage to think that. No way, I know this is Abu Dhabi, but nah, you’ll be right.’
And he said, ‘Well, I just want to prepare you for the worst that could happen.’
There is a silence.
And then I’m like, ‘WTF BELOVED SINCE WHEN DID I NEED YOUR HELP PREPARING FOR THE WORST THAT COULD HAPPEN MY GOD IF WE ARE TALKING WORST CASE SCENARIOS YOUR IMAGINATION CAN GET FROM THE FRONT DOOR TO THE CAR WHEREAS MINE…HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN ME LET’S START THIS CONVERSATION AGAIN, SHALL WE, AND GO BACK TO OUR CLEARLY DEFINED MARITAL ROLES.’
And he’s like, ‘Yes, let’s go home and I’ll pour you a glass of wine.’
(disclosure, this is just lifted from my facebook updates, but I’m desperate to get my blog going again, and it’s silly to give facebook everything)
Not playing facebook I am selfishly very pleased to see you pop up in my reader again.
On the anxiety front? I was anxiety girl, woman and now crone. Able to leap to the worst possible conclusion on little or no evidence. I cross my bridges before I know there is a river.
I hope the wine was generously poured and excellent.
Sometimes I use thinking of the worst possible outcome as a coping strategy because I know deep down that it is unlikely to be anything like that bad. Works a lot of the time. I think that I just need to accept that this is part of who I am and get on with it.
‘Like’ that this is a blog posting.
So happy you’re blogging again.
I can’t quite get myself there yet.